my story on 22 September 2010
yea..the time passing too fast rite..till i dont even know ITS BEEN A YEAR.
these day was a worst memory for me..or am I going to say it was a "happiness" day in my life??
i dont even know what shud i describe that day. but till now..I keep laughing at myself..keep telling myself...
"Why are you so damn fucking stupid??"
He's the one yang you PUJA-PUJA , yang you PERCAYA setengah mati every lie words he tell you, you shud know.. He's the one yg DUMPED u like a trash.. oohh IM SO DAMN STUPID ok..but that time I dont even care...because I love you more, since you are my world and my everything...
I keep waiting and waiting, since you said IM YOURS for the first time we're together.... even you left me for many times,for every stupid girl you met, but I keep waiting for two years comes by...I keep hoping that you will come back to me...but IT USELESS ok...
It sucks when I miss that person so much that I look through old photos, old text messages, even old statuses..and it brings a smile to my face, but then the hurt comes back and I know I shouldn't be looking back, but I can't help it because they really meant something to me and I tod it would of lasted.
urghh!! Im SICK of getting my hopes up for NOTHING!! then I need to end my misery.. How many times do I need to get HURT for me to know it's time to let go , kan?? For two years..TWO YEARS honey..I devoted myself for you, loyal , true-hearted, trust in you..you know you can count on me rite?? But you failed..you failed to be a man you supposed to be... then for the first and the last time, I left you behind..Im sorry that Im sometimes not good enough for you..but our story must be ended.. sure I'll remember your kindness...and thanks for loving me...You're the man who I ever found never ever drop a single tear on your cheek, but the day I left you.. your tears is like a rain.. that was the first time I saw you crying as a man who lost his true love..Im sorry for that..you keep begging me for my forgiveness..and keep talking about the past...begging me to come back to you..you know that's impossible, right?? Because I already found a man, who truly sincere on me.. I do believe.. You are not my mate~
I remember a quotes I've posted before:
One day you’re gonna want her. That girl that knew she wasn’t perfect, but tried to be for you. That girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you, and loving you was the only way she could. The girl who sees your flaws, but values them as much as your strengths. That girl who still can’t bring herself to hate you, even though sometimes you probably deserve it. The girl that should have you, but doesn’t.”
I remember i was like this before..
now Its been a year since that day..well I am much HAPPIER than before...our past is just past...it just leave a scar..
"Ya Allah,Engkau Maha Besar,
diantara kesemua kesedihanku kau selipkan juga kebahagiaan
kau hadirkan seseorang yang membuatku pnya alasan untuk tersenyum hari ini
apa yg lebih berarti dari tawa kalau bukan SENYUMAN kan, Tuhan?
seperti gerimis yang lebih myenangkan dripada hujan
seperti bjalan yang lebih membuatku tenang dripada brlari
dan gelap yg mmbuatku lbih aman dripada terang"
Im happy with my boyfie..well you can see that..hehe!! I do love him..truly deeply IN LOVE with,
Nazrien Awang Puasa.
p/s: I dont care if someones says " buatapa jg dia mau ingat2 lagi pasal tu..or mau kasi malu org lagi"... kamu boleh ckap a million words or mau hina ak mcmna pun ...and this is my memory, my past and my blog..i can say anything or post anything I like..okay~
dan these story will be the last..
NEW LIFE BEGIN. :)
syg ko! harap ko bhgia n jdoh pnjg dgn anak puasa ni..truzkan mempamer kebahgiaan ko dear..enjoy ur life ok!
ReplyDeletesyg ko jgakkkkkkkkkk!!! hhehehe same goes to u syg!!
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